The Life We Choose

So it has been a really long time since I have posted anything. I have written a lot of stuff in between but I doubt I will post any of it. I don't dare kid myself and think that many people ever see it anyway, but if that's why I did it then I probably would have stopped long ago. I guess I just post it out of pure curiousity to see if others will see and maybe give some response. What I write is usually just glimpses of my thoughts and experiences and not a full piece to my puzzle. What I am posting now is a compolation of feelings from some of my relationships with the opposite sex.

evertime i'm by your side, i want you to blow my mind
but it seems you never do
instead you leave me feeling blue.
and it's true
that i want this to work out.
i don't really know why, but i feel i've got to try
keep holding on, but at the end of the day
my feelings for you turn to grey and they fade.

not how i want to live my life.
this union that we've formed doesn't end with me as wife.
if you don't have mine, then i don't have your back
and tell sayjak
that i don't want to buy a vowel.
could have been so loyal
could have loved you til the end,
but now my title for you
doesn't even end in friend.

the end
that's how this story goes
if you want a girl to stay
then the feelings got to show and grow.
let her know you want her around
plant nice thoughts
take her out on the town.
or stay at home
just looking up at the stars.
or drive somewhere far
away from all the cars.

you see
everyone just wants to feel special.
and if you can't produce then it's time to say goodbye
and hi
to the next one you see
you can connect with
fall in love and be free.
life is too short to not give your all
and whether you make it
or just fall.
it's how we know that we're alive
so open up your eyes
and choose to thrive.