Changes or Chances

This is a little bit different than other posts. It's not really a rap, or poem or banter about my life. This is more of a combination of all those things. I don't know who I am writing to, but I need to get it out and saying these things sounds awkward outloud sometimes. I am feeling mysterious lately and joining many experiences within me together. No one person could truely know what I am refering to in this.

I took a chance and it may have exploded in my face
but at least I tried something new, when I needed a new direction to turn to

Now I'm nervous
maybe scared
what will be
what will I see
when I return to a brand new LBC, at least for me
everything changes
so many changes
and nothing ever stays the same

so goodbye friendly face
goodbye my saving grace
I am so sorry to see you go
hoping for a new friend
hoping this is not my end

I needed to take a rest, but all I was looking for was a little return on my investment

I will look up to the sky
hello mr. sunshine

There you are, I have found you happy feelings
where have you been
do you know where confidence lays
I'm not a fool
I know how to navigate this place
but I have been thinking far too much
and my thoughts form spider webs that get in my way
I'm clearing them off today

I often like soul seclusion
but I hate to be misunderstood
I know that I am not the best
but I know that I am something real good
at times I want to kick this rule book
and not do the things I know I should
and live dangerously
so dangerously
but
then again no
becuase I would feel so guilty

Off I go
We'll see what this new venture has in store for me
you know I like to be on my own
but I hate to be alone
I would enjoy a little company from you
from time to time, when you have some time
please say hello

This time has taken years to pass
but it seems to have flown by
and I need to take care of myself now